Saturday, May 23, 2009

If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

- Rudyard Kipling

Right is Right even if everyone is against it; Wrong is wrong even if everyone is for it.  Wm Penn

My New HTC Diamond

MTS has a new phone for $49 and a very good cell plan - unlimited MTS land or cell calling plus 350 minutes for $39

This new phone is a touch screen PDA, a camera, web browser, etc. So I used it to create some blogs with pictures etc, except that I posted them to my other blog page. Click here to see them.

Monday, May 11, 2009

3MOL PLAUT

Friday night we went to Steinbach for the low German Variety night "tom Plautdietch lache"

Saturday morning we went back to Steinbach for the delicious www.theLifeLight.com Brunch

Mother's Day celebration at Pantages for The Pirates of Penzance.

Memorial Stone

We have talked about so many options and have come to the conclusion that if someone in Vancouver knows of a favorite stone Renee had, or one that reminds you of Renee, please let us know. We'd like to get it shipped to Winnipeg and engraved by the good folks at Everlasting memorials. They tell us it should be a granite stone.
We are planning to be in Vancouver for the 18th of June and a few days thereafter. Perhaps we could decide on one then.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Renee Dueck Memorial Award

Ray,

I just wanted to let you know that we are again giving out the Renee Dueck Memorial Award to a first year film student who is courageous, creative , thoughtful, and "always there for you", expertise in photography is a bonus. The first years vote for the person that they think has these qualities, it is a peer award. Dani Eggen and Shannon Archibald, lead this process and will present the award on Thursday April 23rd at the first year screening.

all the best

Seanna

Seanna McPherson
Program Coordinator


Seanna:
Thank you so much for continuing to honour Renee's memory. We'd love to be there for the presentation, but it is not possible this year. Perhaps next.
We wish all the graduates well and in particular, the recipient of this year's award. Congratulations and all the best in the years to come. For more information check out www.ReneeDueck.com and www.MarthaDueck.com
Raymond & Martha & family

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Life is tough

Yesterday I met with Cameron. He lost his son at age 18 in a boating accident 6 years ago. Life has not been the same for him or his family since then. You just don't get over it, he says. I gave him a Renee Memorial card and a Living LifeLight NT.

Easter Sunday evening we went to Steinbach to visit Taunte Liz. During the day we had Justin and Alayna and Alayna's friends for Easter dinner of smoked turkey and other indulgent goodies.

Good Friday we had the Reimer Easter gathering at Martha's mom.

I spend a lot of time in Morris nowadays. Between that, the flood, and St Adolphe, sometimes I'm not sure where to turn.

Tonight Martha and I have tickets for the Gorden Lightfoot concert at the MTS Centre. That should be enjoyable. The other option was to go to Compassionate Friends.

Today is 30 years to the day our Jason died at Toronto's Sick Kids hospital. The Dr there who claimed to be "the fountain of truth" was not.

Tomorrow is the 20th anniversary of my 39th birthday. I am looking forward to my friend Carlin coming for the weekend to spend time with us.

My mom's 85th birthday is on Monday. Hopefully we can go see her then.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

another week

Another week has come and gone.

Highlights:


Friend Selwyn came from Vancouver for meetings and he and I had a half hour to chat.
A new invention was unveiled this week and will be working hard next week. The picture is deliberately backlit, waiting patent registration.
We had more snow.
We are moving into the offices at 1555 Hwy 210 E, near St Adolphe. Come visit us there.

We have booked tickets to go to Halifax to help Kara move home. It will be so nice to have her back.
Yesterday we went to visit Martha's mom and took her for lunch to Hecla Resort. Stopped in to see Mrs Friesen in her new home at Dwight & Lorna's. For supper we went to my mom & dad & Rose. It sure is a blessing that Rose is willing to live with mom & dad, and help them so much. They are hoping to move into the new assisted living facility in Arborg by Fall. Alvin is waiting for final details approval so he can start.
Today we went to McIvor MB for the 9am service and to our church for the 11:15 service. After lunch I had a snooze, and then we took Justin out for Sushi "faspa" Alayna got her training today at the Niakwa Restaurant.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Renee Remembered

Sunday we went for lunch with Alayna (she's studying so hard).

Tim & Elsie came to visit. Tim and I went snowmobiling on the floodway, and scared 2000 Canada geese and 2 beavers.
After supper we watched "In America" a movie Renee and Martha watched in 05, and Renee insisted we buy.
Written and directed by the Irish family it features, it chronicals the journey of grief they went through and shows how the father of the family was finally able "say goodby to Frankie". That, I think, was Renee's message to me. Needless to say the tears poured again. "Slideshow"

A poem by Renee I found today:

The desert floor is cracked and dry
Pieces that once were whole
Now shattered
Every moment is a struggle
To not give up and die
Don’t lead to me to another oasis
I’m tired of going around in circles
The water that I find here
Only keeps me alive
Never enough to satisfy

My heart longs for a place
I’ve never seen
I know only the promises
You’ve whispered to me
Of a milk and honey land
And a well of living water
Don’t lead to me to another oasis
I’m tired of going around in circles
This thirsty ground is crying out
These cracked pieces want
to be made whole
Come flood this desert soul

Jan 4, 2005

Thursday, March 26, 2009

One Year One Month

I had not realized that I forgot my blogging for a month already. Thank you for being such faithful readers. I hope you forgive me.

Today is the 13th month since Renee's early departure. I miss her every day and tears come easily. Thanks to Morris staff for the beautiful flowers.

Last Sunday we spent the day at my parents, keeping them company. I do not understand why they get so few visitors, but I assume that most people think that shut ins are not interesting to visit. But they need it and appreciate it so much when people come over.

Mom's eyes can't read any more, and she has difficulty connecting, but she is her usual friendly self. She actually tells jokes occasionally. She is weak, needs a walker, has a tough time moving from a sitting position to a walking position, often needs help, but appreciates visitors so very much.

Sunday before that was Sunday XL at our church. After the 11 am service, the church serves lunch (Pizza this time), and then offers some 6 different classes including Intro to Eastview for people interested in membership. Pastor Del tells me that we might have 20 new members in the near future!

Martha and I attended Dr Konkel's class. He helped us see how much the New Testament is based on the Old and how the writers used OT scripture to explain to their contemporaries why Jesus was the Messiah and the coming King of the much of the OT. What did Jesus actually say to the disciples on the road to Emmaus? Probably more of less what the writers of the NT are saying to us. Jesus, God in human form, came down to earth to pay for our sins by dying for us, being raised to the right hand of God, so we may have hope for an eternal life in His glorious presence.

Renee's book is coming along nicely. I like what Emily is doing with it. It should be complete by May. Can we find a publisher? I'll post it online for friends to read as soon as it's available. Let me know if you are interested in reading it pre-publication.

I stumbled across a compilation of postings I put together one week after Renee's death. I sure appreciate all that her friends said about her.

We are still trying to decide what kind of memorial we should buy for Renee. How will we ever make that decision? Why are people charging so much for a rock?

Want to see something interesting? see Kara's Web from several years ago.

It's 3 am

That awful cat woke me up. I took the sleeping pill 'cause I have not been able to sleep well lately. Then the cat had to yell and scratch at the door at 3 am. I NEED my sleep!
I've been under a lot of pressure. With more than 100 bins in stock, we had no choice but to issue:
News release March 23, 2009

Vidir Morris announces temporary layoff

Executive Manager of Vidir Morris, Raymond Dueck, today announced a temporary layoff of 17 employees. “As with many of our counterparts, this economic environment is extremely challenging and has led to some tough business decisions in the short term”, said Dueck.

Vidir Morris continues to be committed to providing our customers the best value and service for their grain storage needs,” added Dueck. “We are an innovative group, always looking to provide unique and patented products to make life easier for our valued customers.”

For more information go to http://www.innovaat.com/ or http://www.v-bins.com/

Friday, February 27, 2009

Thursday Feb 26, 2009

One year ago we paced the hospital room watching Renee's heart monitor. Justin and Kyle sang for her.
Yesterday we were home. I started the day with breakfast with Ernie and Wayne. After lunch we had visitors including Ryan, Wayne and Essie, Myron, Joanne, and Gloria. Joanne played soothing music on our Fred Penner piano. Much appreciated! For supper we went to Renee's favorite restaurant Sukhothai and had her favorite dish - Pad Thai. After supper we watched "Alice in Wonderland" One of Renee's favorite movies. See her cities visited list on her facebook. See her movies list on her facebook. More Pictures

Tea Power

From the Reader's Digest 02/09
Drinking green tea may not only prevent cancer but it may also shrink tumours. U of Mississippi Medical Center researchers gave water mixed with green-tea antioxidant called "EGCG" to mice with breast cancer. After five weeks their tumours were 66% smaller and 68% lighter than were those in mice who drank water alone.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

One year ago today Renée wanted mom to make cabbage soup

One year ago today Renée wanted her mom to make cabbage soup. Mom was donating her bone marrow and so could not make the soup. Well, she made the soup today. Alayna, Kara, Martha, and I will enjoy it even if it is mixed with tears.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

More Florida pictures

Segway tour
Disney

The Cure for cancer

Everyone carries cancer cells in their bodies all the time. Most of the time the immune system recognizes the cells and eats them before you know anything happened. Once in a while, some cells manage to disguise themselves as "normal" when all they want is to reproduce themselves and take over.
The wisdom of the world says, zap them with chemicals that destroy fast growing cells and you will get rid of the problem cells. Sometimes that works. Hair fall out and bad cells get beat up. So do good cells. Lots of good immune cells get destroyed in that process. Immune response goes down, other bugs get in, and you are done for.
Turn this wisdom upside down. Boost the immune system. Then take some cancerous cells out of the body. Irradiate them or treat them somehow so that they get killed similar to immunizations. Inject them back into the host, and presto! the immune system sees those as bad cells and kills all the live cells of the same variety!
When I was a child, a man who had cancer went into an operation to remove the tumours. When they opened him up, they found so much cancer that they decided there was no hope. They threw some iodine on the cancerous tumour and sewed him up, thinking he had only a short while left. Lo and behold, he got better!
It appears that the iodine marked the bad cells so the immune system could take over to kill all similar cells.
When will this treatment become common knowledge? Or am I ---?

Monday, February 23, 2009

Feb 26 one year ago

How our hearts ache - Renee - we miss you so much!

This has been a horrible year for us. It started with my business partners kicking me out of the partnership (votes 2 against 1) and then suddenly Renee got sick and died.

What that does to the human spirit, body, soul, and mind, can?t be explained to someone who has not experienced it.

The brain goes into shock mode and self-confidence is down the drain. Decision making is almost impossible. We exist from day to day. When someone asks: "How are you?" my answer is usually: "Surviving."

What were we doing last week? Relaxing on the New Smyrna beach in Florida.

What are we doing this week? Kara is home from Halifax, and we will concentrate on family time as much as possible. Open house from Thursday to Sunday. Drop in any time between 3 pm to 9 pm to sit with us, sing for us, - whatever. Call us to confirm we are home.

On Thursday we plan to have a Thai supper and watch Renee's favourite movies including "Alice in Wonderland" at 8pm. Come join us for that if you can.

I do not plan to show up at my office until March 3 http://www.innovaat.com/

To read our journeys click on
http://www.reneedueck.com/
http://www.marthadueck.com/
http://www.raymonddueck.com/

Between us there are 600+ posts there is a lot of reading if you want to read it all!
Ray

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Edgewater Alliance

Draw me Close - Kelly Carpenter
You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
Help me to know you are near

Faith and Argument rschafer@edgewateralliance.org

4 questions
Students thought of how they could invent an excuse why they where not there for the exams on Monday and said they had a flat tire. When they got the exam the 4th question worth 85 was- which tire?

Acts 17
Athens had all the philosophies they had more idols than people. 60,000
Paul was stirred in his spirit.
He went to the market place and he got invited to speak to the intelligencia
Paul started to talk about the unknown God

1. Where did I come from? Dad where did I come from? Oregon?
Ne have a God who made the world. God who creates. Made something from nothing.
How do you describe Nothing? Big difference between creating something from nothing or to say nothing created everything.
Bertrand Russel: how do you explain creation? he said: I don't know- it just is.
China killed 30 million.
Russia killed 30-60 million
Hitler killed 12-18 M
Cambodia
Ruwonda
Take God out and nothing matters.

2. Purpose
Why am I here?
2 RR track layers met the president. One used to work with the man who is now the president. Why? one worked for the railway the other one for $0.10 @ hour.
Ernest Hemmingway pulled the trigger on himself. "Life is a short day from nothingness to nothing."

Emily's husband died. Dr Paul Brandt, her son, told her to go home. She lived in an 8×8 hut for the rest of her life - 25 years. She did not own a mirror. She was obsessed with the calling God gave her.

3. Morality
How shall I live?
What is 2+2? What do you want it to be?
C.S. Lewis: Everyone has the moral imperative. When we take God out of the picture we can mutilate babies for entertainment.

Redemption Salvation Worship
God made the bridge. No other religion calls God father

4 . Destiny
What happens when you die?
Count down clocks? Comedian said: I want to live forever - so far so good. Death changes things.
At a funeral the daughter screamed hysterically, crawled into the casket.
For a Christian death is the beginning. I will never be more alive than at that moment. The same hand that died for me will reach out to me and welcome me.
Be convinced that God loves you.

What happens when you die?

A friend and I worked laying pipe. After a lot of abuse by the boss I prayed: "Dear Lord I will smack the foreman on the head." Before we could do that we got fired.

You don't have to believe anything. What I believe makes me happy. What if I'm right and you are wrong? Where will you be if you don't believe?
Some day God will ask- what did you do with my Son?

Are you willing to invite God?

Download this message at www.EdgewaterAlliance.org

Friday, February 20, 2009

TRAZODONE

I used to get 4-5 hrs of sleep, and was fast becoming a zombie. I started taking TRAZODONE on the advice of our counselor, and a prescription from my doctor, and now I'm gettting 7 - 9 hrs of sleep.

Yesterday's RBC reading was from Psalm 42

As the deer longs for streams of water,
so I long for you, O God.

Day and night I have only tears for food, - that's right!
while my enemies continually taunt me, saying,
“Where is this God of yours?”
My heart is breaking - into a thousand pieces every day
as I remember how it used to be:

I walked among the crowds of worshipers,
leading a great procession to the house of God,
singing for joy and giving thanks
amid the sound of a great celebration! - of the Brooklyn Tabernacle
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?

I will put my hope in God!

I will praise him again—
my Savior and 6 my God!
Now I am deeply discouraged,

but I will remember you— even from distant Mount

“O God my rock,” I cry,
Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I wander around in grief,
oppressed by my enemies?”

Their taunts break my bones.
They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?”
Why am I discouraged?

Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!

I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God! - I hope

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Florida


It is a delight to be in Florida for a week. Today it's nice and warm. Guys are shirtless on the beach. We have had a good day yesterday and we look forward to spending time with Carlin and Marcia today. See our pictures here.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Time to Pick a Memorial?

Here is what we are looking at. We need some advice.
Which style do you like?
Which colour of stone do you prefer?
What illustrations, what text, what picture should we put on the memorial? What would Renee have wanted? None of this!
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